“'Cause sometimes you just feel tired, you feel weak. And when you feel weak, you feel like you want to just give up. But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength. And just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up, and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you want to just fall flat on your face and collapse” –Eminem (excerpted from his song ‘Till I Collapse’)
As some of you already know, I love to write. In fact, I felt so strongly that writing was my calling, my purpose in life, that I left my cushy, corporate job in 2017 to pursue my passion. But, things didn’t really work out in the way that I thought they would. I wasn’t earning enough money to stay in my apartment and I was forced to relocate to Austin and move into my parent’s house for a while. Then, I worked as an editorial intern at a local magazine, where the type of writing was quite different from what I enjoyed, and I completely stopped writing for ME.
I’ll be honest. I was disappointed and embarrassed that I wasn’t successful in my attempt at a writing career. I was scared to do something “risky” like that again because I was afraid of failing. I thought that I wanted to do the safe thing, the responsible thing, and go back to a structured office job working for someone else. I thought that maybe a marketing job would be creative enough for me to feel fulfilled. So, as my internship wrapped up I started searching for marketing jobs. And, I got one.